My Crohnic Life

– LIFE WITH AN INVISIBLE DISEASE – 

Grief & Chronic Illness

First came the cramping, but it was “just” normal uterine pain that came with every little girl’s period. Then came the fatigue, but everyone around me seemed to frequently discuss how exhausted they were, so I was tired too. Then came the bathroom urgency; I had to go, and I had to go NOW, but […]

Waiting

Waiting. And waiting and waiting and waiting. This seems to be all I do these days. I am a full time patient, holding temporary residence in Limbo. While this is a place I’ve often dwelled, I’ve been lucky to escape. Time and time again. But, here I am, unpacking my bags and dusting the shelves […]

My Glass House

I live in a body made of glass. Sturdy, but always at the risk of shattering in one fell swoop. How do you find strength, when your body, your home, is falling apart? Any movement risks another piece to fall out of place. I remember what it was like to live without this fear, this […]

A (Flared) Day in the Life [Video]

“What does a typical flare day look like for you?” This is a common question for me recently; rather than type out a boring summary of my day, I thought I’d show you. Yesterday, I had no appointments or pharmacy runs, so I took this day as an opportunity to answer this question; I recorded […]

Chronic

Cannabis saved my life. Pain has riddled my memories with darkness. I vividly recall the sensation of a dozen knives being plunged into my abdomen and then being violently twisted around. At the time, I was lying on the cold tiles of my bathroom floor with hot tears rolling down my face, agonizing screams leaving […]